standard disclaimers apply: I don't own sailor moonor any of thecharacters related to it and i don't own the songeither, so pleasedon't sue me!
Don't find a fault. Find a remedy. - AnonymousOnly the heart can change the heart.Friends are never far apart when they're together inthe heart.Love doesn't imprison, it sets you free.My love for you - that is my only sin. - WilliamShakespeareIf u live to be a 100, I want to live to be a 100minus 1 day, so I'llnever have to live without u. - Winnie the PoohHowever far apart we may be, love will always carry meclose tothee. - Tuxedo Mask/Kamen, Sailor Moon Super S
Breathe . . .
Passion For Life
. . . Breathe in
Breathe out . . .
Darkness blanketed the skies of Tokyo, shrouding thelight of the moon from the city's inhabitants. Thedark cloudsreleased a wave of tears for their Prince, who couldnot shed anymore.
He sat in a fairly large room. The newly paintedwhitewalls reached his nose, causing him to scrunch hisnose from time totime. He could hear the pitter-patter of the rainaccompanying thedrip-drops of the iv.
The beeps of the heart monitor echoed throughout theroom in small intervals, followed by the sound of therespirator,breathing for his beloved . . .
. . . Breathe in
Breathe out . . .
He held her hand tightly. He had tried to will hisenergy into her before, but it didn't work. All itaccomplished wasmore worry for the Senshi. He just didn't know whatto do. Hecouldn't loose her, not yet . . . they had their wholelives ahead ofthem.
His fingers unconsciously began caressing theslenderfinger that was embellished with a solitaire diamond.
His mind screamed. This had to be a dream . . . no,not a dream, but a nightmare.
Life was so perfect for them. The evil had beendefeated, and now all they had left to do was to livetheir lives . . .live their lives as normal people, that is, until thetime for CrystalTokyo came.
But no.
Someone had to shatter their dream, their newlyfoundhope for the future, and in the process, his life.
He sometimes wondered whether the fates ever wantedthem to be happy . . . to, for once, live without anyproblems . . .to just be together.
He turned his head to the window. His ebony hairfellover his piercing blue eyes. They were more blackthan blue . . . theyhad lost whatever light SHE brought out in him . . .they were dead. . . clouded with haunted memories of the past, theirpast . . .
Flashback . . .
The apartment was dark, just the way he liked it.Thesun had just set, leaving the sky dark, awaiting theluminous moon toreplace the light of the blazing sun.
He sat in his favorite chair. It was the one thathe set facing the big window that overlooked the busy,yet beautifulstreets of downtown Tokyo. In the distance, you couldsee the outlineof the lake in the park. It usually reflected thelight from the sunas well as the moon, but tonight, tonight, it did notreflect anything.
His dark eyes were closed and his unruly black hairfell over his eyes, tickling his nose slightly. Asudden sensation ofwarmth spread throughout his body, causing his heartto beat faster.He didn't worry though, he knew what it meant . . . itmeant that SHEwas near. A smile tugged at his lips.
He heard a soft knock at the door, but made noattemptto open it. He heard the shuffling of keys as thedoor knob turnedand the door swung open with a slight creek.
"Mamo-chan," a sweet voice rang through theapartment.
No answer.
"Mamo-chan?" she repeated, taking off her shoes andwalking through the dark apartment.
He lay completely still, the smile still on hisface.He felt her presence more and more as she walkedcloser to where hewas seated. His lips burned with the desire to feelher honeyed lipson his . . . his fingers ached to touch her silky,golden hair and hervelvet skin.
She walked to a near-by lamp and turned it on. Hereyes blinked several times to adjust to the now dimlylit room. Shewalked to the window and pressed her cheek to the coolwindow. Sheclosed her baby blue eyes.
He felt the illumination from the lamp, but stillkepthis eyes closed. He then felt her walk toward andpast him. That'swhen he opened his eyes, blinking several times toadjust. He saw herand his smile grew wider. He looked over her body,his eyes filledwith hunger at the aura of light that surrounded her.
He walked towards her like a lion about to prance onits prey. His arms snaked around her tiny waist. Hereyes shot openand she gasped in surprise. He turned her around,their lips barelytouching. They could feel each other's hot breaths.He whispered,
"Usako . . . "
She felt shivers run up and down her spine. Heleanedcloser to her ever so slowly. She closed her eyes andwaited.
She felt a slight peck on her nose and frowned. Sheopened her eyes and looked at her boyfriend. He wasup to something.She noticed the mischief and mirth in his midnightblue depths. Hereyes narrowed. He chuckled.
"Mamo-chan," she said in her most angry voice.
He grinned, "Gomen, Usako. Its just that you looked so cute andall," he said to her, his hands reaching for hers.
?????
I would hold the hand of the one who could lead meplaces,
His fingers caressed her left hand, particularly herring finger. She blushed slightly at her boyfriend'santics. Now, shewas sure he was up to something.
Deciding that anger wasn't the right approach, shepouted her warm, pink lips and walked away from him.
She wasn't disappointed when she felt him grab herarm,effectively holding her back. She smiled before heturned her aroundonce again, facing her toward him.
"Usako."
She didn't look at him. She knew that if she did,thenhe would know that she was only joking, so she bowedher head, findingthe green carpet more appealing to look at.
He sighed,
"Koishi . . . gomen ne . . . "
He cupped her face, lifting it to his. Her eyeswerestill downcast. He picked her up, a gasp escapingher, and carried herprincess-style to his bedroom. He didn't bother toturn on the lights,rather, he set her down on his bed and walked to hisdresser.
She looked at him confused. She heard him open thedrawer, then close it. She saw the outline of hisfigure, his backwas facing her. She wondered what was going on. Shethought that shemade him mad.
"Ne, Mamo-chan, I didn't mean it. Gomen forangeringyou," she said, her head turning to the windowshamefully.
He took two strides towards her, sitting down beforeher.
"Usako, I'm not mad at you. Actually, I'm kinda madatmyself."
"Nani? Wh-"
He silenced her with his finger.
"Onegai, love, let me finish before you say anythingmore."
She nodded slightly. He looked down, unable to saythewords he had been waiting to say for so long. He hadpracticed thisso many times in the past. Now, now, he couldn'tremember what he wassupposed to say. He ran his hand through his darkhair, trying tocalm his nerves.
It wasn't working.
He felt something warm touch his face. He looked uptosee her face staring down at him. Her eyes reflectedpure love . . .love for him, and him alone. In their own way, hereyes encouraged, noreassured him to continue.
He sighed as his hand reached to cover hers.
"Usa, I really don't know how to say this. I mean,Ihave been going through this in my mind so I wouldn'tbe so nervous,I-"
"Mamo-chan, tell me, love, what's wrong?"
"Nothing's wrong Usa. I just don't have the perfectthing to say to you."
She looked at him with a confused look in her eyes.
He smiled,
"I mean, I can't think of the best, most perfect waytosay *this* . . . actually, I have to ask you *this*question, and-"
"Just say it Mamo-chan. I don't care how or whatyouhave to tell, um, ask me, just do it."
"Alright. Um, I love you always and forever."
She smiled at him and blushed a bright red hue. "I knew from the moment I met you, that I wanted tobewith you. I have been waiting for the day, this dayto ask you . . .I want to know if you'll spend the rest of your lifewith me?"
"Nani?"
He took out a box from his pocket and opened it forher. It revealed a diamond solitaire ring. Shegasped.
"After our first encounter, I was restless, so Idecided to take a walk through the city and came uponthis jewelrystore. I saw the ring and imagined you wearing it oneday," he blushedslightly, "I've waiting until now to ask only becauseof everythingwe've been through . . . you know, school and theevil. But now, nowI think that both of us are ready for this step. Iwant you to marryme Usa. Will you?"
The apartment fell silent. Mamoru looked at thering.Had he been rushing things? Had he scared her? Whywasn't she sayinganything to him? If she didn't want to do it, hewould understand, butshe just wanted her to say something to him . . .
and kiss the lips of the one who could sing so sweet,
Rather than answering, Usagi knelt down next to himand brought her face close to his. She whisperedsomething in hisear. Her hot breath caused him to shiver. His eyeswidened and hisfrown turned into a huge smile that went ear to ear.
"Really?"
"Would I ever lie to you Mamo-chan?"
"No."
"I'll always be with you. Aishiteru."
"Aishiteru Usako."
He kissed her then, slowly at first, thenpassionately,hungrily. Her arms wrapped themselves around his neckand her fingersplayed with his hair, causing him to *want* her more.He groaned andleaned into her, slowly lowering her body down, ontothe soft creme-colored carpet. His passion for her took over and hekissed herdeeply, prying her lips open. He had been waiting allday to tasteher lips.
She gasped. She didn't know he had *this* in him.Hewas always so reserved when it came to matters likekissing. Shewasn't about to deny him what he wanted, so she openedher mouth tohim, allowing his tongue to play with hers, lettinghim to do herwhatever he desired.
He ended the earth-shattering kiss moments later,onlywhen he realized that both of them needed air. He laydown on hisback and brought her into his embrace. She nuzzledher head into hisneck. Their hands entwined with one another as theysighed. Hesomehow managed to place the ring on her finger andwas now touchingit every so often to make sure it was real, that thiswas not just awonderful dream . . . his Usako said yes.
He looked at her and realized that she was hislight.He had always known that, but this was the first timehe realized justhow much he needed her, wanted her . . . he'd wait forhis weddingnight though . . . it was definitely worth it . . .nothing and no onewould take her away from him . . . or so he thought .. .
and I would fly on the wings of the bird I knew couldtake me highest,
End flashback . . .
Breathe in Breathe out
you keep me alive
you are the fire burning inside
He looked at her pale, almost ghostly face. Hecouldn't believe that this had happened. One minuteshe was smilingbrightly for him and the next, the next she was lyingon a bed,fighting for her life.
Breathe in Breathe out
you keep me alive
you are the fire,
my passion for life
A few stray tears escaped his eyes. She was hislifeand she couldn't just leave him, not like *this*, notafter all theyhad been through. It just wasn't fair!
He squeezed her hand tighter, almost crushing hertinyhand with his large one.
"Onegai Usa . . . onegai, come back to me. I'mnothingwithout you. You know *that*. You are my love, mylife, my soul mate.I can't live without you . . . I can't . . . " hebegged before hisvoice broke and he began letting the tears flow downhis face onceagain.
I would dance with the feet
I knew I could always follow
He felt a hand on his shoulder. He didn't bother tolook at who it was.
"Mamoru-kun," the senshi of Mars asked softly,feelingher own tears threatening to fall.
"She can't leave me Rei!"
"I know that this is hard for yo-"
"Hard!?!! You think this is HARD for me!?!! Do you
know what I'm going through!? She's my family,everything I am orwill ever be is because of HER!"
And take the road that hadthe straightest line
"Mamoru-kun," Ami said meekly, "We know how much shemeans to you. She means a lot to us too," she saidfeeling the hottears trickle down her face, leaving behind a stingingpain that wasnothing compared to the pain she felt in her heart.
"Ami's right," Minako said, "We love her very much.Weknow that you do too."
"Mamoru-kun," Makoto started gravely.
You do all of these things for me
You are a momentum
He heard the seriousness of her voice and looked ather. She had her head bowed.
"What is it Makoto? What are you guys not tellingme?"
"Mamoru, they found the guy that ran over Usa."
"Nani?"
"They believe that he was driving whileintoxicated."
"He was drunk? I'm going to loose my Usako becausesome guy decided to be dumb enough to drive his carafter drinking!?!"
None of the senshi could answer him. They all knewthat he was right. How anyone could be so stupid wasbeyond theircomprehension, but it happened. People actually didthis, people wereactually dumb enough to drink and drive.
But, it only happened in the news. It only happenedtoother people. It didn't, doesn't, couldn't happen tothe champion oflove and justice.
breathe in breathe out
you keep me alive
you are the fire burning inside
The sound of the heart monitor and respirator echoedthroughout the room. The senshi and Mamoru waited forUsagi to wakeup and laugh, smile, tell them a corny joke . . . theywaited for herto do something. They knew that it was close toimpossible for it tohappen. The doctor's said that she was bleedinginternally and thatshe didn't have a good chance of surviving.
Still they waited.
Outside the rain fell harder and faster. Thecitizensof Tokyo ran to shelter, not knowing that both theEarth and the Moonwere sad . . . they too waited for their Princess . ..
breathe in breathe out
you keep me alive
you are the fire burning inside,
you are my passion for life
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japanese translations:
koishi - beloved, darling, wanted
nani - what
ne (?) - eh (right?)
aishiteru - i love you
onegai - please
gomen ne - sorry
The song is not mine, its called Breathe, by Jane French. It's thetheme song for the soap, Passions. I'ts on her cd, but I'm not surewhat its called.
I was inspired to write this story at work, afterreading a poem thata co-worker of mine wrote, *grins at patch*, no patchdid not write it,but someone else that we work with did.
please send feedback! i love hearing from all of you!
ja ne!
redrose
=====~Always~
And now your face lights up the sky
Somehow I feel that you're close by
And when I'm happy you can see
I know you're watching over me...Always
BBMak ~ Sooner or Later